A walk through Longbranch Farm & Trails becomes an inquiry into self-revision, responsibility, and memory.

When beginning anew, we resynthesize what we lived through, attempting to grasp meaning, forge purpose, and know for certain what we are meant to be this time. Adapted from The Fire of Regret (2025) Have you had no other choice but to wait at some point in your life? You know, a holding pattern, in limbo, on pause, at a standstill: a full stop. Everything. What feelings surfaced, and what thoughts came to meet them? What were your ultimate conclusions about the experience, or

I returned to music with hesitation, unsure if anything remained after years of fear, silence, and self-erasure. Bookbinding proved I could still learn, but music exposes the version of me I ran from. This is the beginning of confronting that history, sharing the process, the darkness, and the question of whether I can create again. Date : Monday December 8, 2025 Ordinal : Week 1 | Day 1 Yesterday, I posted A Time of Review | Part 2 . It discusses the inner thoughts and emoti

A twelve-week review of bookbinding opens deeper questions about validation, meaning, and identity within constructed systems. The work clarifies how personal inquiry can exist apart from external lineage and marks a pivot point: pausing the craft to begin the long-awaited music project. Date: Sunday December 7, 2025 Ordinal: Week 13 | Day 91 Designation: Admin A gnawing feeling, an intuition that when I paused for reflection on the past 12 weeks in the art of bookbinding a d

Reviewing the full twelve-week arc of the bookbinding apprenticeship, including completion of Prototypes #2 and #3, recent historical study, and the shift toward assessing my place within the craft. Established December 1–7 as a focused review period to synthesize all documentation before determining next steps. Date: Sunday November 30, 2025 Ordinal: W12 | D84 Designation: Admin November 21, 2025 November 21, 2025 - Completed Prototype #2 November 28, 2025 - Completed Protot